I know i’m frightening myself, but the pain is too much to bear…

Imagine this… when you stand, the nerve in your ankle starts to swell and the feeling of it swelling up all the way to the back of your back… and at the smallest move, you feel that the nerve seems to be bursting open! YES! That’s the kind of pain that I’ve been going through for the past one week.

Went online to read about slipped disc and got to learn about sciatica. Both seem to be the cause of my pain now. And I wouldn’t know till I get a fucking MRI scan! Which is firstly going to cost me an arm and a leg and I seriously don’t know when the docs at SGH going to give me that scan!

If after the scan, its not a slipped disc, i think i can just kill myself… cos it might be some rare diseases or might even be a cancer…

I know i’m imagining too much now… but how the hell am I not allowed to after a week of rest with no improvement at all!!